caleb and june.

i knew that he would be disappointed when we found out we were having another girl.

he had wanted a brother so badly.

probably because his other sister thrives on driving him crazy.

{and let's just say for the record, it's the combination of 

leah's love of a reaction

and how easily caleb is provoked}

so when we broke the news to him after the gender-revealing ultrasound,

i told him that another little girl was coming to our family,

because he had been such a good big brother to our first one,

and God knew he could trust him to love and protect another one.

i took a deep breath, wondering if that explanation would be enough for him.

and he smiled, and sat up a little straighter,

and said, "okay."

i don't know what God's plan is for our family,

or if that is the real reason that june was sent to us.

but since she has been born,

i've listened to the way he has talked to her,

and how careful he is when he holds her,

and the way he has taught leah to be soft with her,

and i think that maybe the explanation i gave to him

was the right one.