the next 5 months

so i figured i'd write about this because for some reason it's easier for me to write it down than to talk about it...

my sister sent me an email about 3 weeks ago announcing a try out for a show for everyday moms to share experiences about being a mother. the good, the bad, the uuuuuuugly. the rewarding moments, the exhausting moments, the moments we want to pull out our eyebrows.

well we all have those, don't we?

so anyway the try-out was the next day & i lived about 20 minutes away from where it was taking place. so i sent an email introducing myself & some things about me w/ a picture & was asked to come in to audition.

let's be honest, i didn't know what i was doing.

i walked in there, with my non-maternity sweater on...the buttons kept popping open...not a smart choice, and sat down next to some beautifully dressed women. i waited for about an hour, then was asked to come into a room.

in the room there were about 6 people sitting behind a long table, and the room was only lit by two huge spotlights shining right on me. also on me was a camera.

i was interviewed for about 10 minutes, then was told "we'll let you know."

i came home & said to ben, "it was interesting & i felt waaaaaay in over my head." i wasn't even sure yet what i was auditioning for!

the next week i received an email saying i'd been selected as a finalist & to come back for a group interview. okay sure, why not? i showed up to meet with 8 amazing women...when i say amazing, i am not talking lightly here. there were single moms of 4, moms of 5, one publishing a book, a breast cancer survivor (in her early 30's), another undergoing breast cancer treatment who was also an attorney & a mother, two of the cutest sisters you could imagine (made me miss lauren!)...

i felt totally out of my league. i'm not being humble here, this is just reality. the 9 of us sat in a room together for about 2 hours, answering questions & getting to know one another.

i called ben as soon as it was over and said, "well it was fun to try out & i'm excited to watch the women who are selected do the show. but to be truthful, if the choice were up to me, i wouldn't pick me!"

i was trying to be realistic. what do i have to offer that other women would be interested in? aside from beaming with pride today at the fact that caleb sat on the big toilet & went potty without even a whimper at church? even that, i'm not sure how many people care.

but i guess those making the decision about the show felt differently.

i got another call saying i had been one of 4 who had been selected to do the show & would i like to participate?

and said yes.

so what is it, really?

it's an online reality show featuring 4 moms in different stages of their lives sharing "a day in the life" and hoping that it is something that other moms can relate to. the moments that make us laugh, cry, and those that make us want to pull out our eyebrows.

have i mentioned the removing of eyebrows?

the website is sheknows.com and has 16 million viewers a month. a MONTH!

sweet mother of pearl, what have i gotten myself into?

we started taping on friday, and then more taping went on at a baby shower i had yesterday. i kind of cramboozled some of the ladies there because i hadn't announced to everyone that the camera would be joining us. sorry ladies.

i have my own camera here at home to do "confessionals"...which i'm pretty sure will consist mainly of me taping caleb's meltdowns. they have become pretty hilarious lately. he is now threatening to run away and screaming "DON'T HURT ME! OW! OW!" when i am nowhere near him. honestly i am sure one of our neighbors in the complex will call CPS on us.

they will be taping moments of the birth. no i will not let them be down there yelling, "she's crowning!"

so there you have it, in a nutshell. there will be a trailer airing in about 2 weeks, and the first show will be aired on march 1st. it still doesn't seem real and i am 100% sure i will look like an absolute fool.

but at least going in there knowing that, i won't be disappointed.

no, this won't be the real housewives of maricopa county. there will hopefully be no cattiness and talking about one another's wigs & implants.

but hopefully it will be real, and something that others are okay with watching.

so does that inspire anyone to want to come & visit us now??? come on, don't be shy.

here's to the next 5 months, it could get pretty crazy....

i'll keep you posted.

(ps-when you look on the website, the lady who does the "daily dish blog" on the right is the main lady i am working with. her name is shay & she is great! so if she's so great, i'm hoping that the experience will be too. :)