so for the online show, i'm supposed to be taping these at-home confessionals where i expose my deepest, darkest innermost secrets. not really. but i am supposed to talk about things...kind of like i do on my blog...but everytime i turn on the camera i totally freeze up. and when i say freeze, i mean stammer like a fool and then start giggling like an idiot and then eventually have to just turn it off.
last night i had ben sit with me and talk with me on camera to try to loosen up but even that made me feel awkward. less awkward, but still awkward.
i just don't know what to say!
and then of course, the opportune times for some good footage...such as caleb's 45 minute meltdown where he threatened to run away about a million times...i don't jump on & then think about it after the fact.
maybe i'm just not cut out for this stuff. yikes, should have thought about how boring i actually am before i agreed to be on the show.
anyone have any great ideas??